Tony! ...Where Have You Been???

Every trip I take to the grocery store lately, or while pumping gas at the local gas station…people are asking me, “Tony…where have you been?” They want to know if I am still running, if I am still doing dedications, or if I am still going to run across the country. Yes, Yes, and Yes! But, now I am ready to talk more about the “where have you been” part.
Before I get into this I want to remind you all that I have a HUGE announcement this Saturday at 8pm right here on the blog.
Everyone has become familiar with my signature run dedications, where I dedicate a training run to a lost loved one (usually to suicide) as a way to honor the life they lived, and for us to continue the grieving process as we move toward closure. The good news is…you will see much more of that real soon. But, I have yet to fully share my complete personal story. Only a very few people really close to me know about my struggles, and why suicide prevention is so important to me.

The tragic death of beloved actor Robin Williams this past Monday to apparent suicide was a shock to me, and really bothered me for many obvious reasons. I can fondly remember laughing for hours at shows like Mork and Mindy, and movies like Mrs. Doubtfire. I was amazed at how seamlessly his comedic genus was.  I pray for his family as they attempt to pick up the pieces and move forward after the loss. But, what really grasped me over his death was HOW he died. Learning of some of the details and realizing the pain, and agony that must have filled his last few days left me speechless and sleepless. My friends…the reason I have not been seen around much is because I have experienced another (my third) serious bout with depression over the past 4-6 months. Reading about Williams’ death reminded me of the pain I had just struggled through. This all has conjured up action on my part (that you will learn about Saturday).
Starting with my announcement post on Saturday I will begin sharing more of my entire story…to include more details about what has transpired the past few months (the scripture below is a hint). Another part of my mission is to tell MY story, and encourage others around me to LIVE! God bless my friends =)


  1. Tony, I did not know you struggled with bouts of depression. I knew there had to be a reason you are so passionate about your ministry, and there may be more reasons. It is a passion I share as a faith based counselor, and I so appreciate you sharing this openly. My experience is that when you openly talk about your own experience it helps people to not feel isolated in their struggle, gives them permission to talk about it, offers hope, and helps dispel the stigmas surrounding depression and suicide.I have so much love and respect for you as my Christian co-worker with Christ, the hard work you do, the compassion you have, and just for who you are. Good to hear from you friend. God Bless you and your family. :)

  2. You have been severely missed my friend. Prayers for you.

  3. Tony,I pray that God gives you renewed strength for your future plans.
    Having suffered with depression myself for so long,I also was very dismayed by the death of Robin Williams. He could not see his value to others or how many hearts would grieve at his loss in this manner. Please know that you also have been a bright light for so many of us with your honoring of our loved ones.
    You ran for my precious uncle who passed last August. This touched so many in my family. My Aunt has a picture of my Uncle on the wall with your dedication underneath.I was comforted when you ran for my stillborn child also.
    You are a blessing to God and many of us....
    remember this. Prayers for you always.